illirica
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Everything was fucked up, in all the wrong ways.
It wasn't that Rhetta didn't expect things to be screwed up. That was the default state of things, as far as she was concerned. She'd been raised in the Bloodstones. Something was always screwed up, and someone always had to sort things out. It was just that things were usually screwed up in a certain set of ways that were at least somewhat predictable - and, more importantly, the people figuring out how they got sorted were not her.
She was all for doing what needed to be done, whatever it was that happened to be. That was what she was good at. That was what being an Enforcer was all about. Someone pointed her at a problem, and she solved the problem. That was how it had been, and it was how she'd expected it to be when she got back.
Things had changed. People had changed. Some of them were dead. Others weren't doing what she had expected them to be doing. Others expected her to do things that she didn't expect to be doing, and it all felt wrong.
The attack would have gone better, if Baron had been there.
She dragged herself out of her thoughts, not for the first time. She'd done what she could, to fix things up. Some things didn't need a whole lot of direction. She could still spot problems, deal with them before they became bigger problems, because part of what she was supposed to do was keep things from getting to the point where they needed to bother whoever was in charge. Eventually, though, she'd run out of the obvious and had to deal with thinking about things. It hadn't gone well.
She'd tried to sleep, a bit, in little cat naps. That hadn't gone well either. It wasn't safe. It wasn't actually the potential threat of attack by horrifying monsters that made it unsafe, at least, not in her head. It was that the Den was the place where things were safe, and she didn't have that to fall back on. None of them did. The Railyard was trying to be something like that, but it wasn't, not yet. Not for her.
She'd gotten out, instead, and just rode her bike around the city for a while. There wasn't much going on at night. It was quiet, and gave her something to do besides think about things. It gave her a chance to see if the city had changed as much in the last five years as everything else had. She didn't cause problems, even if it was tempting, but stirring up trouble was the sort of thing that you didn't do when half your Pack was in the hospital. Mostly, it was just an excuse to be out, moving around, not being locked in a box like she had been the last five years. That felt strange, too.
Dawn happened. At least that was still predictable. Riding around squinting into the sun wasn't as enjoyable as riding in the dark, so she let herself find somewhere to stop. It ended up being the same little coffee place where she and Ragenard had started having it out with each other. There was a lot of unfinished business in that conversation, but she'd have to have it later, once he'd gotten over the whole being unconscious thing. She was a little pissed off at him, for that. Among other things.
The place was open. Rhetta supposed that was normal, for a coffee place. It smelled like coffee, which was familiar in a comfortable way. It was a shame how it tasted, but it wasn't like she was here to drink any of it. The guy who ran the place had very obviously had some sort of history with Ragenard, and history was exactly what she needed right now - something to go on, something to make sense of all of this. Something to give her some sort of understanding of exactly what the fuck was wrong with everything these days, and why it couldn't just be fucked up in the usual sense.
She pushed the door open, scanning the room for threats. There were always threats, it was just a matter of marking them and finding the best place to deal with them. She picked a seat off to one side, where she could watch the room and the door. It was quiet. That suited her, she thought.
It wasn't that Rhetta didn't expect things to be screwed up. That was the default state of things, as far as she was concerned. She'd been raised in the Bloodstones. Something was always screwed up, and someone always had to sort things out. It was just that things were usually screwed up in a certain set of ways that were at least somewhat predictable - and, more importantly, the people figuring out how they got sorted were not her.
She was all for doing what needed to be done, whatever it was that happened to be. That was what she was good at. That was what being an Enforcer was all about. Someone pointed her at a problem, and she solved the problem. That was how it had been, and it was how she'd expected it to be when she got back.
Things had changed. People had changed. Some of them were dead. Others weren't doing what she had expected them to be doing. Others expected her to do things that she didn't expect to be doing, and it all felt wrong.
The attack would have gone better, if Baron had been there.
She dragged herself out of her thoughts, not for the first time. She'd done what she could, to fix things up. Some things didn't need a whole lot of direction. She could still spot problems, deal with them before they became bigger problems, because part of what she was supposed to do was keep things from getting to the point where they needed to bother whoever was in charge. Eventually, though, she'd run out of the obvious and had to deal with thinking about things. It hadn't gone well.
She'd tried to sleep, a bit, in little cat naps. That hadn't gone well either. It wasn't safe. It wasn't actually the potential threat of attack by horrifying monsters that made it unsafe, at least, not in her head. It was that the Den was the place where things were safe, and she didn't have that to fall back on. None of them did. The Railyard was trying to be something like that, but it wasn't, not yet. Not for her.
She'd gotten out, instead, and just rode her bike around the city for a while. There wasn't much going on at night. It was quiet, and gave her something to do besides think about things. It gave her a chance to see if the city had changed as much in the last five years as everything else had. She didn't cause problems, even if it was tempting, but stirring up trouble was the sort of thing that you didn't do when half your Pack was in the hospital. Mostly, it was just an excuse to be out, moving around, not being locked in a box like she had been the last five years. That felt strange, too.
Dawn happened. At least that was still predictable. Riding around squinting into the sun wasn't as enjoyable as riding in the dark, so she let herself find somewhere to stop. It ended up being the same little coffee place where she and Ragenard had started having it out with each other. There was a lot of unfinished business in that conversation, but she'd have to have it later, once he'd gotten over the whole being unconscious thing. She was a little pissed off at him, for that. Among other things.
The place was open. Rhetta supposed that was normal, for a coffee place. It smelled like coffee, which was familiar in a comfortable way. It was a shame how it tasted, but it wasn't like she was here to drink any of it. The guy who ran the place had very obviously had some sort of history with Ragenard, and history was exactly what she needed right now - something to go on, something to make sense of all of this. Something to give her some sort of understanding of exactly what the fuck was wrong with everything these days, and why it couldn't just be fucked up in the usual sense.
She pushed the door open, scanning the room for threats. There were always threats, it was just a matter of marking them and finding the best place to deal with them. She picked a seat off to one side, where she could watch the room and the door. It was quiet. That suited her, she thought.