The end of school arrived with its usual amount of barely controlled chaos as everyone surged toward the doors and freedom. The line of parent cars moved swift and sure as everyone found their appropriate vehicles. The line for the busses was less enthusiastic. As they headed for said line, Xander stopped short and nudged Alec. Alec followed his gaze and saw Declan standing leaning against a car he didn't recognize. Declan saw them looking and grinned, raising a hand to them.
"What is he doing here?" Alec wondered.
Xander shrugged and walked toward Declan, forcing Alec to follow or be left behind. "Hey, what's up?"
"What's up?" Declan grinned. "What's up is I rented a car so I could give you boys a ride home from school." He patted the hood of the silvery, pristine car. "It's actually cheaper to rent one of these things than it is to buy a motorcycle helmet, and I can't fit both of you on the back of my bike, anyway."
"Really? Cool," Xander said, impressed.
Alec caught his arm as he started to move forward. "I don't know if our foster parents would approve of this," he said quietly. "We should ask."
Declan groaned and rolled his eyes. "Seriously? We've gotten together like a dozen times by now. Don't you know yet whether or not you can trust me to give you a ride home? You're fifteen, not five." He sighed and held up his hands. "But if you really think that's best, I guess I'm not in a position to argue."
Xander tugged the arm Alec held lightly. "Come on, it's just a ride home. It's going to be a lot faster and a lot less smelly than that old bus."
Alec hesitated. "Straight home?"
"Okay, you caught me," Declan said a touch dramatically, "I was thinking maybe we could stop for ice cream. It was my diabolical plan the whole time." Then more seriously, he said, "I get that it's hard to trust me, short stuff, so how about this? The ice cream place is on the way, so we have to pass it anyway. If you decide you don't feel comfortable, we'll keep going, and I'll take you home. If you do feel comfortable, we'll stop and each have a cone. Deal?"
Alec glanced at Xander, who was looking at him hopefully. "Okay," he agreed. It's a deal."
"Great!" Declan stepped to the side and opened the front door. "Who's got shotgun?"
"Me!" Xander stated and got in the front seat.
Alec climbed into the back, buckling up and hugging his backpack to his chest as Declan got in the driver's seat. Declan and Xander chatted as Declan negotiated the chaos that was after-school traffic, but Alec leaned back, watching out the window. He didn't honestly believe Declan would do anything bad, but he couldn't bring himself to trust him. Why was that? Why did Xander - the historically more distrusting of the pair - trust Declan when Alec couldn't? Alec looked forward to the pair as Xander laughed at something Declan said. Maybe it was because for once an adult was giving him attention on his level, something he understood, and something positive. Declan wasn't trying to be an authority figure, nor was he trying to be a buddy-buddy like a fellow teen. No, he was just being himself and offering to let Xander join him. Xander didn't have to worry about Declan scolding him, challenging his choices, or punishing him. Maybe that was the difference. Declan was giving Xander a glimpse of an adult world without consequences. Alec looked back out the world. The trouble was, that world included trying to avoid the consequences he'd earned.
"Alright, here we are!" Declan said cheerfully, pulling into a parking spot in front of a small ice cream parlor. "Everybody out for-"
"I don't want to go in," Alec said abruptly.
Declan paused and turned to look back at Alec, his seatbelt in hand, puzzlement on his face. "You don't want to go in? You mean you want to wait in the car? I don't know about that."
Alec shook his head. "No, I want to go home, please. I do not want ice cream, I want to go home."
"Oh, come on, Alec, it's just ice cream!" Xander huffed in exasperation.
"Yeah, are you sure?" Declan asked.
Panic rose in Alec's chest as he clutched his bag tighter. "Yes, please. I want to go home. Please, take me home." It was all he could do to keep his voice level and not shaking.
Declan sighed and buckled back up. "Alright, I guess it's home. Sorry, Xander, but you both gotta be comfortable. Otherwise, it's no fun, and your foster dad would skin me alive. Possibly literally."
Xander growled in frustration and slumped back in his seat. No one said anything as they drove the rest of the way back to Dark and Daizi's house. Alec felt the guilt gnawing inside. Was he overreacting? Should he have said yes? Should he have at least tried to go along for Xander's sake? He hugged his pack tightly, watching the houses go past. They pulled up in front of Dark and Daizi's house, and Xander started unbuckling.
"Thanks for the ride," Xander said.
"Wait," Alec blurted. When Declan and Xander turned to look back, he said, "If it's not to late... um, maybe you two could go back? If you really want."
Declan and Xander exchanged confused glances. "Are you sure?" Declan asked.
"You want to stay home alone?" Xander asked.
Alec forced a smile as he unbuckled and pushed open the car door. "I'm sure. You two go have fun. I'm just not feeling up to it."
"Alright, if you're sure," Xander said slowly, disconcerted, but he handed Alec his school bag.
Alec watched the pair pull away and went into the house alone. He had homework to do, but he couldn't concentrate. Instead, he ended up dusting the entire house, tidying up, and playing with Enkidu. He didn't know what else to do. Time ticked by, and he prowled about the empty house, his anxiety ticking upward with the second hand. Where was Xander? Why hadn't they gotten back yet? What was keeping them? What on earth were they doing? Should he call someone? No, he mustn't panic. Xander was smart and capable. He wouldn't be taken in easily.
Finally, ten minutes before Dark was usually scheduled to be home, the silver car pulled up in front of the house, and Xander hopped out. He said his goodbyes and sauntered into the house as the car pulled away.
Alec ran to meet him. "Where have you been?" he nearly yelled. "That was a lot more than just ice cream!"
Xander stared at his brother. "Chill!" he told him. "We started out there, but then we were talking about some stuff, and we went out to a couple more places." He headed for the kitchen.
"What places?" Alec demanded, following him.
"A skate park for one," Xander said, getting a drink of water, "and then we hit an old road so Declan could show me what the car could do. It was no big deal. Why are you acting in a frenzy? We just hung out, nothing weird happened."
Alec hugged himself and looked away. "I was scared," he admitted. "I didn't know where you'd gone or what happened or why you weren't coming back. I thought maybe... I don't know."
Xander came over and hugged him. "Alec, it's okay," he assured his brother. "Declan asked if I wanted to go home. I chose to be there, and, guess what, it was a lot more fun just us! You should come with us next time. It was a lot more relaxed, no fights, no arguments, just hanging out."
Alec leaned into the hug and hugged him back. "I'm sorry."
"No, I should have texted you or something," Xander admitted. "I'm sorry. If there's a next time, I'll tell you more."
Alec smiled and nodded. "Thanks."