"Oh, I don't know... I've thought about it, but I've also heard it's bad to miss a feeding because it can cause you to dry up, and I'd have to schedule time to..." She paused, struggling to think of a way to phrase it that wouldn't bother the twins, because she heard Xander choke and when, "prepare the bottles, and I still couldn't do that around them, and if I have to isolate myself for a period each day, I'd rather it be with Ivy rather than a machine. Before my supply settled and I was donating all that excess, I hated those moments. I'm grateful I was able to help so many people, and lord knows it was better than the alternative, but it just... And I would have to hear her cry for longer at night while Dark went downstairs to heat up the bottle, and it'd be harder for him to just go back to sleep after because he'd have to wake himself up enough to stumble downstairs and use the microwave in the middle of the night, and I still..." Again, she hesitated about phrasing, "The sound of Ivy's crying, even if she's just whimpering, or if it's someone on tv crying... And if then I'd have to get up to change or sleep in a wet shirt..." She dropped her hands and sat back, taking a few moments just to be quiet, "There's just not... One answer. I think we've got a good system, now. Dark brings her to me then burps her and puts her back in the cradle after, and he keeps an eye if I doze off to make sure nothing dangerous happens... I just feel like I'm still exhausted from bringing her here, and since I brought her here early we get an extra six weeks of her not sleeping." She shifted and then crossed her arms, "This probably isn't great Christmas conversation, I'm sorry."
"Rentals that don't allow pets are a scourge," He replied, but sounded a bit far-away because Daizi had caught his attention and he was watching to make sure she was okay, and was preparing to either cut in to offer help or slip upstairs to wrangle her husband, "but that's the nice thing about cats, "if you pick the right one, they only need you at dinner and breakfast."