Daizi snorted gently, "I don't know if we should gossip about that."
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Inside the nursery, Cooger went over to the window to look down at the garden while Dark changed Ivy's diaper. "Are you okay, dude?" He asked, "You have that look about you."
"What look?"
"The look wolves get when they're put in a cage and then the cage is put on a plane."
"I have no idea what that means."
"You know," Cooger waved his hand, "Tense, anxious, but emotionally bereft."
Dark exhaled through his nose, "Who taught you the word 'bereft.'"
"What's going on? You worry me more than anyone." Cooger said, turning away from the window and sticking his hands in his pocket, "When you're not good, it's unpredictable how not good you are."
Dark sighed, only looking at what he was doing, "There was just... a lot. Yesterday."
"The sexual harassment?"
"That," He agreed, "but the twins have been fighting, so Daizi and I have both been tense as we deal with it. When I got home, Xander was ignoring Alec, who yelled at him, and chased Xander outside, so Daizi went to talk to Xander, and Alec went outside, but he left his sketchbook. I opened it up, and..." His shoulders slumped slightly.
"And?" Cooger asked, frowning. It didn't even occur to him to say he shouldn't have gone through it, because he knew he absolutely would've too.
"I think he is afraid of me. That he thinks I am going to hurt him." Dark admitted, even though it was difficult, "He has been drawing this comic, and... That is what it looks like, anyway. And back when that man assaulted them, and I... fought him off, he--both of them, actually--looked at me with terror in their eyes. I know that look, Cooger. I have seen it in my own reflection."
Scrunching his face up, Cooger took time to consider this, but then shook his head, "Nah, that doesn't make sense, though. He sure don't act like he's afraid of you."
"No," Dark agreed, snapping Ivy's onesie shut and bringing her to his shoulder, "but that is what I saw in his illustrations."
"And that's all that's got you like this?"
Dark took a heavy breath and looked over at Ivy, "I lost her for a minute. Had absolutely no idea where she was."
"And you catastrophized."
"I catastrophized."
"You gotta stop doing that."
"Why have I not thought of that?"
Cooger nodded, recognizing it wasn't helpful. "Sorry. So you catastrophized."
"I thought I was going to find her dead. Or with injuries which would lead to her death. And I was imagining needing to call the ambulance, I was imagining having to tell Tarot..." When his voice got tight, Cooger came nearer and squeezed him on his shoulder. Dark took a deep, careful breath, kissed the top of Ivy's head, and then continued, "Then we found her, and she was completely covered in paint."
"I saw."
"And for a split second--just a moment--I thought she was covered in blood. And it brought so much back." Dark finished, and Cooger swore empathetically, indicating he understood just how upsetting that would be. They stood silently together for a few moments, then Cooger took Ivy from him while he explained the fight the twins had, how the noise had startled him again, and just how, physically exhausted he was after another night without sleep.