Daizi squeezed Alec back, kissing him ontop of his head. She could tell there was something different about how they were this night, but she didn't know why. "I love you too," She murmured, finding Xander's sleeve and tugging it in return. Once she was released, she took a breath and then went upstairs to speak with her aunt.
Zeinab was sitting on the bed, loosely braiding her silver hair and Daizi came to sit beside her, "Do you always stay up so late?"
A bit shyly, Daizi admitted, "I might. Normally Dark is awake with me, it's how we find time together these days."
"That's why you're so tired. Come here, let me brush your hair," Zeinab said, picking up her hair brush and angling Daizi's back towards her.
"I think having an infant, teenagers, and a full-time job has more to do with it," Daizi replied, shivering as she felt the brush run through her hair, "If I went to bed earlier, then I'd be fussed at for not making time for myself and my marriage."
"Do you take time for yourself?"
"Yes," Daizi answered, slumping her shoulders, "Who have you been speaking to?"
Zeinab halted, "Why do you think I was talking to someone?"
"Amty, have you been speaking to my husband?"
"I haven't been speaking to anyone," Zeinab replied firmly and honestly, setting down her hair brush and beginning to braid her niece's hair back, "If I'm saying things which seem familiar..."
"Then maybe other people have noticed them too," Daizi grumbled, rubbing her hands over her face and wishing her aunt didn't have her literally by the hair so she could walk away.
"Don't take that tone with me, Daizi."
"I'm not taking a tone."
"Daizi."
Gritting her teeth, Daizi sat silently fuming until she forced herself to say, "I'm sorry, Amty."
"I forgive you," Zeinab replied, tying off Daizi's braid and taking her hand in hers, "We just worry about you, habibti. It's been a hard few years for you, I see it in your face. It's normal, Daizi, it's not an easy adjustment, especially for..."
"Don't you dare say 'for someone like you.'"
"Again, don't take that tone with me."
"Amty," Daizi groaned, turning towards her aunt, "If it's difficult for everyone, then why is everyone talking to me like there's something wrong with me? Like there's something broken in me that needs babying when everyone else who finds it difficult could just manage? Why does everyone I love think I can't manage?"
"Maybe because we did have help," Zeinab replied, squeezing Daizi's hand gently.
"Did you?"
"Or wish we had."
Daizi sat in silence, feeling her aunt's thumb rub against the back of her hand. Her throat closed tightly and her face felt hot. When she could force herself to speak she coldly said, "I said I would do whatever it took. That's what I'm doing."
"But you don't have to do it alone," Zeinab promised her.
"I'm not alone."
"Daizi..."
"I have my husband, and if him quitting his job to take care of the home and our children leaves me doing it on my own then I don't know what having help looks like." Daizi replied, pulling her hand back and standing, "Amty Zeinab, I love you, and I'm sorry you're worried, but people didn't trust me when I was pregnant, and people don't trust me now, and I'm just figuring everything out. You should get some sleep, I know you're not normally awake this late."