Lex sucked at her teeth briefly and then blew out a sigh. "I spent a lot of my life with not much. When I was a kid, my family was poor, but not flat broke. We all ways had food, clothes, and everything we needed plus the occassional luxury. No one had to miss a birthday present so my folks pay the bills. My parents owned their house. It was a townhouse that was a little cramped for the size of family we had, but they owned it and could do whatever they wanted with it. Because of arbitrary school zone lines, us kids ended up at school with some of the richer students. Not elite super rich, but way better off. Some of them had a pool! I looked at that, and I got jealous. I wanted what they had. And I was jealous of my sister, went down a bad road, and ended up broker than ever. Somewhere along the line, I started to equate owning a house that had a yard and didn't share walls with... I guess succeeding in life. When I owned that house, then I'd know for certain I'd made it. Not only had I made it out of the wreck I made of my life, but I'd achieved more than my parents. I was better in at least one way.
"So, when I chose to move Toby and me out of Jersey and make a go at standing on my own two feet, I bought the first house I could afford that had a yard and no shared walls, and I ended up in the suburbs. The house isn't bad. I love it in a way, and your work helped me love it even more, but the location is all wrong, and I bought it for the wrong reasons. I'm glad I did because I doubt I'd have run into you otherwise, and your family as my nextdoor neighbors is a hoot! But it's the wrong place for me."