How Green Becomes Wood

"I don't want to know what I'm getting for Christmas," Daizi teased lightly, "I don't even know what patterns I'd make. I've heard about these beautiful, intricate tapestries of women and unicorns or the Bayeux Tapestry, but it's frustrating how limited I am. I'm aware of 2d art, and I've tried drawing before, but it's hard to translate my experiences and make them flat."
 
Daizi laughed softly, "I have no idea how those programs work but I'm certain I could press the print button. I'd have to be careful to not to take over your father's artistic niche."
 
"No, he wouldn't. He never minds those sorts of things," Daizi said, feeling the edges of the rug for a few moments. Then, she sighed and took the risk to say, "He really wants to fix things."
 
Even though it hurt to hear, especially knowing how distressed her husband was downstairs, Daizi nodded because she took Alec's opinions seriously, "I only know his side of the story, you know. Can I ask what he did which upset you so much?"
 
"I don't want to talk about it," Alec huffed, and yet he said, "He doesn't trust me to know and understand what I'm doing. He doesn't give me real advice, just sages of wisdom, and then acts shocked and annoyed when I don't follow what he wants me to do. If he's not going to tell me what he wants, then he doesn't get to be annoyed when I don't follow it."
 
"Revisiting the same points over and over again," Alec clarified for her. "If he's going to be hypocritical and not trust me and lie to either himself or me or both, then what I have to do is prove that I know what I am doing and am in control."
 
There was so much Daizi wanted to say to that. She wanted to ask why Dark was being hypocritical, how Alec was planning to prove he knew what he was doing, why he thought Dark was lying... Part of her wanted to tell him to look around at the house and explain how what he was doing would help any of it. Part of her wanted to tell him the silent treatment was incredibly immature and he should know better. She wanted to tell him that, honestly, she wasn't so sure he was in control. And that she and Dark were allowed as his parents to give expectations.

But the situation was so tenuous, she couldn't say any of that. Instead she ran her thumb over the stitching of the rug and quietly said, "He loves you, you know. He'd never intentionally hurt you and now that he knows he has, he wants to make things right." She feared that would only make things worse, too, but she couldn't hold it back.
 
"I would like my rug back, please," Alec stated. "I know he loves me. That doesn't change things anymore than it changes things for you when people do stuff for you or think you can't do something."
 
Daizi sighed, handing it back over and risked losing her line of communication with him by saying, "You will need to speak with him eventually. I'm not trying to upset you. It's just the truth. I want to know everything about how you feel, but I'm trying to respect you have said you do not want to talk about it."

Knowing he was likely going to kick her out anyway, she forced herself to smile at him and said, "I'll get you when dinner is ready, okay?"
 
"I know you want to know everything!" Alec finally snapped. "I know it because you keep telling me! But maybe I don't want to tell you everything! Maybe there's absolutely nothing to tell! But when I tell you that, you think I'm holding back, and if I do tell you, you fuss and fix and lecture! I can't win! Please, please, just leave me alone!"
 
Daizi stood still, holding onto the door she was already in the process of shutting. Then all she said was, "Do not yell at me." before gently shutting the door and going back downstairs.
 
"I wasn't yelling. I was snapping," Alec told the closed door hotly. "If you're going to be mad at me, at least be mad at me for the right thing!" He turned away from the still closed and completely innocent door and stomped over to his bed where he sat and stared at the wall miserably. He didn't want to be mad at Daizi. He wanted to be mad at Dark, but not Daizi. But she wouldn't stop! Neither of them! Maybe it wasn't her fault, but it was still a factor and he was still mad and sad and a tiny bit scared and a small bit sorry and very miserable and feeling sorry for himself.
 
Daizi sighed in frustration as she went down the stairs, rejoining her husband who was doing his absolute best to entertain Ivy while simultaneously feeling like the worst person he knew and wanting to curl up in a hole and never emerge. But he couldn't do that because he had children and he was doing everything in his power to not worry his baby. Daizi wished she could comfort Alec. She knew he was upset---frankly, his comment he maybe had nothing to talk about with his therapist was almost an insult to her intelligence. This kid with a burgeoning hoarder probmem who had given his father the silent treatment for four full days now because he didn't give the right kind of advice had nothing to talk about in therapy? Sure. She totally believed that. It wasn't like a lifetime of trauma took time to work through or anything.

She wanted to hold him and she wanted to help him but he didn't want that--although she was very certain if she didn't try to talk to him about it, he'd end up snapping that she didn't care. He didn't want it, and she was going to respect his wishes if it killed her. She was willing to believe he could handle his feelings himself, even though this war of attrition seemed to suggest otherwise.

"I am going to schedule another family therapist appointment," Daizi said, stern but whispered, sitting down in the living room.

"He will not go."

"He will. He can sulk silently the entire time, but he will be in that room." Daizi replied solidly, "We're not his friends, we're his parents."
 
Xander came in and paused, looking around the room. Should he do something about all this tension, or should he just leave? He decided to leave rather than risk adding to the tension, and he took Enkidu with him. He left a note on the fridge that he was going for a walk, how long he expected to be gone, and that he did have his phone on him if he was needed.
 
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