How Green Becomes Wood

[pandakatiefominz]

Daizi stroked Alec's hair, loving and protecting him as she sat on the floor with him. After this, eventually, she'd need to get up and find time to fill her own needs back up. It was hard, the way everything was being thrown around and she knew it wasn't safe for her to walk further in to him and when he was saying how he didn't want to exist, it reminded her of so much. Of Dark, that horrible day. Of her brother. Of her son Omar. She wanted to curl up somewhere but couldn't yet.

"Do you think she's been helpful, though?" She asked gently, rubbing his back.

 

[BookKnight]

"Yes," he mumbled. "She demands honesty. She won't let me lie. No matter what. I hate it. It's good, though."

 

[pandakatiefominz]

"Sometimes that's what you need," Daizi told him, rubbing his back. "It will get easier in time."

 

[BookKnight]

Alec mumbled quietly, expressing some doubt, but he was too tired to even doubt right now. He finally lifted his head. "I'm sorry I trashed my room. I'll clean it."

 

[pandakatiefominz]

"I hope not too much broke," Daizi replied softly, stroking his hair, "The rest can be fixed up. There is nothing to fear."

 

[BookKnight]

Alec sighed and rested his head in her lap again. "I just kind of... panicked. I saw it in boxes and I thought... I just... I couldn't take them being in boxes again. But it is nice to not trip over things."

 

[pandakatiefominz]

"I know it's a hard adjustment," Daizi replied, rubbing his back, "You deserve to have space for yourself in here."

 

[BookKnight]

"Yes, but you deserve to be able to walk around without fear," Alec remarked.

 

[pandakatiefominz]

"Yes, I do deserve that." Daizi replied truthfully, "And I worry what would happen if there were a fire."

 

[BookKnight]

Alec grunted softly. After a bit, he pushed himself up into a sitting position and took hold of Daizi's hand. "I am sorry, Mama. I got scared of what was happening and just... lost my head. With everything. And felt like I couldn't stop or else worse things would happen. I couldn't stop."

 

[pandakatiefominz]

"It happens sometimes," Daizi said, squeezing his hand, "What matters most is what you do next."

 

[BookKnight]

"I don't know what to do next," Alec admitted. "I don't know what to do."

 

[pandakatiefominz]

"Right now, take some time to decompress," She told him, running her fingers through his hair, "and then clean up. We can go from there."

 

[BookKnight]

Alec took a deep breath and let it out in a slow sigh. "Okay," he agreed. "Okay. I can do that."

 

[pandakatiefominz]

Cupping his face in both of her hands, Daizi kissed Alec's forehead and then brought him into a close hug, "We'll always be here to catch you, okay?"

 

[BookKnight]

Alec felt tears prick his eyes as he stared into Daizi's asymmetrical face. He still found her beautiful in a way he could not describe. "I love you, Mama. I trust you," he whispered. He took another deep breath. "You should get off the floor."

 

[pandakatiefominz]

"I love you too, Alec," Daizi replied, squeezing him one last time before letting him go, "You're probably right. And you should drink some water."

 

[BookKnight]

"Yes, Mama." He glanced around at the mess his room was in and heaved a heavy sigh. "Ba should... really not come in here for a while."

 

[pandakatiefominz]

"He would help you to clean and organize, if you asked it of him," Daizi told him as she stood, "You know that."

 

[BookKnight]

"Before or after his heart attack?" Alec asked, helping her up. "I know he'd help, but I... just... I don't know. I don't want him to, and I don't know why, and I'm too tired to figure it out right now. Maybe later. I'll make it less hazardous tonight."