"Yeah," Lex sighed. She made a little swirly. "I don't regret Toby. Never have, not even on the worst, hardest, at the end of my rope day, but I regret how it came about. I lost a lot of time with him, and there's stuff I'll never be able to make up to him. Still, I can't exactly spend my days wishing to turn back time, can I? I've never wanted another kid, not once, but it is nice to play with Ivy or occasionally my nieces and nephews when they were tiny and seeing what kinds of things Toby might have liked to do. I get a glimpse behind the curtain." She smiled up at him. "The giving them back is still the best part."