After her conversation with Xander, Daizi had been waiting all night to be in bed with her husband so she could rant and express how worried and frustrated she was. She wanted to say he was being stubborn, and frankly immature, because all he was doing by refusing to engage was making the problem worse. Worse for himself, and worse for the people around him. But instead of engaging with that, he was pushing everything down like everything would be okay if he just didn't talk to his brother, but they knew what happened when Xander repressed his feelings. Not too long ago she had a pretty nasty bruise from when he was doing his best to repress his feelings. They knew what happened when Alec repressed his, she knew what happened when Dark repressed his. She knew what happened when she did. It never worked.
Standing as a ghost at the top of the stairs, Daizi rubbed her face, then dropped her arms down to her side, standing perfectly still as she tried to think through and process. Dark would tell her Xander just needed more time, that it was too soon to engage with him. He'd remind her he had told her it wasn't a good idea, yet, and that of course Xander is being immature, he's still a child, he was still learning.
But she went into the bedroom, and didn't say any of it, because there was her husband, lying silently on his side in bed. There was a different sort of tension in the air. Without bothering to change out of her day clothes, Daizi crawled in bed with him and placed one hand on his shoulder, "Goose? Are you okay?"
"I am working through it," he told her quietly, not rolling over onto his back. but he relaxed slightly at her touch.
"What happened?"
"I lost her," he replied, squeezing his eyes shut, "I set her down so I could hug Alec, because he needed it, and I wanted him to feel like I will choose him, and she crawled away. I could not find her. I lost her. She was only underneath the bed, but for what felt like months I had no idea where she was, or if she was safe."
Bending down over him, she kissed the side of his head gently, "It's okay, darling. You found her, and she's okay. We'll just make sure all the doors are shut, next time."
"I kept imagining that--" He began, but couldn't get the words out. The tone of his voice made Daizi drop over him, and do her best to hold him tightly from such an odd angle. "How could I have told you? If---"
"I know, Goose," She murmured, pressing against him to be his weighted blanket, "but there was nothing bad to tell me. She's safe, and had a very fun and messy adventure. And I promise, you're not the only one who will lose her. I know for a fact I'm going to lose track of her a hundred times a month as she gets bigger. And I'll probably panic every time, too. But she'll be okay. All parents events briefly lose their baby. We've baby proofed everything, it'll be okay."
"She looked like she was covering in blood," He shuddered, squeezing Daizi's hand. The memories were an electrode in his brain, electrocuting him as they forced their way unbidden into his mind. It was funny, he was able to laugh about it once he knew what it was. He knew it would be a funny story to tell, some day. But that first moment. Lifting the bed, pulling her out, covered in what looked like blood. A few different memories all overlapped at once.
"It was paint," Daizi promised, "It was just paint. But I'm really sorry she scared you so deeply."
Taking an unsteady breath, he said, "I have been really trying to let it go."
"I know, Goose. Let me get your weighted blanket, okay? I can make you tea."
"Daizi?" He asked weakly, "Can you just stay here? I--I am okay, I know I will be okay, and I am working through it. I do not want to be coddled, I just. Would you hold me and not say anything?"
Daizi smiled sadly and settled down into a more comfortably position, pulling their comforter over them, "Of course, darling."
"Thank you." While he brought her hand to his heart, she gently kissed his shoulder blade, and then the two of them settled in, presumably for the night.